SHH.....I HAVE A SECRET

I Have a Secret

I have a secret,
A secret no one can know,
A secret only shared to those the closest to me,
A secret I can not afford to let go.

I have a secret,
A secret that holds much meaning.
Meaning to my life,
Meaning to other lives as well.

I have a secret,
A secret like anyother,
A secret others alike have,
Others like me.

You have a secret,
Hiding deep inside your soul as well,
Concealing your greatest fears and memories,
But don't worry,
Don't be scared,
Everyone has a secret,
I won't force yours.

The chronology of my lecturer's life

28 Mei 2007 – Success during interview at KL Sentral for UMT (Uni. Mal. Terenganu)

July 2007- Registration at UMT for “Fello Academic (Meet with Shida and Fairus)

20 August – My application to London (Middlesex University) being rejected by KPT (So devastated)

12 September 2007 – Went for an interview for tutor at UMK (Uni. Mal. Kelantan)

11 October 2007- Receive a phone call from UMK, my interview was success

21 October 2007 – Registration at UMK for tutor post

21 October 2007- Resign from UMT’s “Fello Academic”

29 October 2007- Meeting for University’s approval (University of Sydney) (meeting was success)

6 November 2007- My application to University of Sydney being approved by KPT ( ON TOP OF THE WORLD)

4 December 2007- My Visa to Australia approved

8 February 2008- Fly for the very first time to Sydney (my first international flight as well at age 23)

19 November 2008- Finish the last paper (exam) for Master in International Business

12 December 2008- Successfully grad from University of Sydney

8 January 2008- Fly back to Malaysia....

*for the past 11 months (from 8 February 2008 to 8 January 2009) it happen to be the most wonderful time of my life, the most depression time of my life and the feeling...joy, happiness, love, frustration, friendship teach me a lot about the reality of life. So far I’m not yet considered as a lecturer, I still have a long way to go...PhD and all, but I will never give up nor let something or someone to be the obstacle for my dream....to be an academician.

love

LOVE

I love love
love is power
love is passion
love set me free

I hate love
love is poison
love is evil
love is killing me

But I know
love is love
when i love me
and i love you...

DESTINY

My Destiny

My destiny is to dream
Dream of who I want to be

My destiny is to live the way I want to
Live in independent freedom

My destiny is to love
Love without shame

My destiny,
My destiny

My destiny is to live.

YOU....IT'S YOU

I dedicated this poem to you....you know who you are..

YOU

You brought happiness into my empty heart
You brought emotions alive again
You were not prepared what we were to start
You were not ready for what was to begin
You were not aware for how soon it will end
You saw my pain and my sorrow
You made me look forward to another tomorrow
You made me laugh and you made me cry
Having you is a bless in a form of a friend

DREAM

DREAMS

Dreams come to us almost every night

Some are filled with terror and fright

Others can be of a beautiful sight

Princesses, castle, horses and kings

Prince charming giving you a lovely ring

These are all of the fantasy things

Death, sorrow, heartbreak and grief,

A tree losing its very last leaf

These dreams leave us in disbelief

Some dreams we may always want to keep

Those that leave us as safe as guarded sheep

And sadly others may make us weep

Whatever happens we must always know

Dreams will constantly come and go

Just be ready for the next oncoming show

Serendipity

Serendipity?

Perhaps in life, we always faced with serendipity without realize it or not. Sometime, it will change your wiew, your perception towards life or even your life itself. Actually I never interested in blogging nor never imagine to have a blog but the recent serendipity make me restucture and reevaluate myself and its like a door to venture a "new me".